This is not a, "I want sympathy" post, nor is it to boast about the fact that I have anxiety. It is to share my experience with you and if it can helps even one person, then that is my aim accomplished.
When it started to effect my university work, I knew I had to take control of this. The way I look at anxiety, now, is that it is like a spoilt child. It will keep flaring up and playing up, attempting to get your attention, until you put your foot down and say "no. I'm in control of this situation". However, when you are suffering from said disorder, this mindset is easier said than done. And in retrospect, I had no idea about how to deal with it, and had I known this then, I think I would've avoided a very dark time. When I began to have panic attacks, I got more and more scared of the disorder. It's like when you are walking home at night by yourself, and even the smallest shadow scares you. Anxiety for me,
Now I'm approaching the end of my degree, and I look back at how I used to be and where I am now, I'm extremely proud of my progress. Anxiety is never going to be cured, sadly. However, you do not need medication to overcome it and control the symptoms. With a bit of talking therapy, a strong support system and relaxation techniques, it is possible to kick anxiety in the butt. I'm now in an extremely happy and loving relationship, I have the most wonderful best friends - both at university and at home - and the most incredibly beautiful and loving family.
After I graduate I plan to go into the fashion industry. As many of you know, if you follow me on Twitter, I have been extremely lucky in having been offered three internships this summer for numerous established companies, from PR to journalism, and I am so incredibly excited. My boyfriend, Nath, is a fashion design
Have you seen Monsters Inc? Yes, the Disney film. I promise I have a point. When Sully enters Boo's door for the first time, and initially, Boo is scared at first, but then she realises that Sully is a big fluffy bear, is no longer afraid and that he can protect her from the bad guys. Anxiety is like that. It is scary, at times. But appropriate levels of anxiety can also be beneficial and somewhat reassuring and helpful. It reminds you that you care about something, or someone. It keeps you on your toes, it encourages adrenaline and fast thinking.
Keep anxiety in check, keep your mind clear and your heart happy. If you're struggling, I promise, you can and will get through it.
Lots of love,